It was hard
I wanted to post about this yesterday bet the day got away from me. I was sitting in the unfavorable situation of dropping our kids off at the church I just "resigned" from. It was a kind of thing one has to prepare emotionally to accomplish.
I was flat unable to walk into the building - so as my wife took our kids to check in I sat in the car and listen to the ipod. Sting had managed to work his way to the top and sang two ballads (Fields of gold and How fragile we are) then this whining starts - a singer I can't place whining so badly I think it's one of those old Ray stevens tunes - just a gaff.
But it isn't. This is what I heard:
So now I'm crying trying to remain motionless so as to not attract any attention and avoid a hard conversation. It was hard. But I thank God I'm not stuck in reverse. Actually the hardest part of all of this right know is knowing that a needy church lost a great Youth Pastor. However, "God's next" gained in the deal what happens remains to be seen.
I was flat unable to walk into the building - so as my wife took our kids to check in I sat in the car and listen to the ipod. Sting had managed to work his way to the top and sang two ballads (Fields of gold and How fragile we are) then this whining starts - a singer I can't place whining so badly I think it's one of those old Ray stevens tunes - just a gaff.
But it isn't. This is what I heard:
When you try your best but you don't succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse
And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste could it be worse?
Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you
And high up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth
Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you.
So now I'm crying trying to remain motionless so as to not attract any attention and avoid a hard conversation. It was hard. But I thank God I'm not stuck in reverse. Actually the hardest part of all of this right know is knowing that a needy church lost a great Youth Pastor. However, "God's next" gained in the deal what happens remains to be seen.
Have courage for the great sorrows of life,
and patience for the small ones;
and when you have accomplished your daily task,
go to sleep in peace ....
.... God is awake.
~Victor Hugo
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btw - the whiner was cold play! (Comment this)
Tough place to be sitting in and I so admire the courage you both have to know you have to be here for now. (Comment this)