Our whole being must become truer
I read this today on Blumhardt's website:
Becoming truer is really hard. I find that I am all too good at fooling myself, convincing my ego of one fantasy or another. Magical thinking (the idea that because I believe everthing will be "OK" it actually will.) seems to predominate in certain areas. Getting comfortable in who I really am and how far away it is from who I want to to be - profoundly hard. The more I get to know myself - the less I like what I see in some parts.
It's not the start of a depression, it's the answer to a prayer. I really want to know the truth about me. How I am perceived, what I am like - without all of my contrivances, masks and make-up. Ugly or no, I want to have the clear truth - to "become truer." How else can I move forward in a flexing flux filled world?
Shakespeare said "to thine own-self be true." What a jerk.
I am the Lord your God, who brought you out of Egypt, out of the land of slavery. Exodus 20:2
These words stand at the beginning of the Ten Commandments. They stand in the first place, like a rock, and all of God's will flows from them like a fresh, living spring. If we have the rock we also have the spring, the source, and our relationship to God becomes a true one. If we lose the rock we no longer have the source. Even if some of God's commandments may please us, they do not connect with our lives, and God's life will not be truly glorified in us. Yet this is what we want to strive for all together. Our whole being must become truer.
Christoph Friedrich Blumhardt, from Christoph Blumhardt and His Message, Our Jehovah.
These words stand at the beginning of the Ten Commandments. They stand in the first place, like a rock, and all of God's will flows from them like a fresh, living spring. If we have the rock we also have the spring, the source, and our relationship to God becomes a true one. If we lose the rock we no longer have the source. Even if some of God's commandments may please us, they do not connect with our lives, and God's life will not be truly glorified in us. Yet this is what we want to strive for all together. Our whole being must become truer.
Christoph Friedrich Blumhardt, from Christoph Blumhardt and His Message, Our Jehovah.
Becoming truer is really hard. I find that I am all too good at fooling myself, convincing my ego of one fantasy or another. Magical thinking (the idea that because I believe everthing will be "OK" it actually will.) seems to predominate in certain areas. Getting comfortable in who I really am and how far away it is from who I want to to be - profoundly hard. The more I get to know myself - the less I like what I see in some parts.
It's not the start of a depression, it's the answer to a prayer. I really want to know the truth about me. How I am perceived, what I am like - without all of my contrivances, masks and make-up. Ugly or no, I want to have the clear truth - to "become truer." How else can I move forward in a flexing flux filled world?
Shakespeare said "to thine own-self be true." What a jerk.
